So many times I find myself drowning in emotions and feelings that say that I’m no good. That I’m not a good person, or wife, or mom.
Over the past few years of getting closer to Christ, and having these babies – I started hitting a wall that required me to make a decision. Was how I’m feeling in a moment going to run me or God? Was the feeling I had been experiencing becoming my identity or was there another option?
As daughter’s of the Kingdom and sisters in Christ, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. As wives, we are called GOOD things (Proverbs 18:22). Our identities don’t change based on our emotions. Feelings are fleeting! We must remind ourselves daily of who God says we are, so that the moments of frustration, anxeity, and fear don’t become our ruler.
We discuss this & more on the latest episode of The Jade Godbolt Show! Tune in weekly for new episodes and don’t forget to follow & turn on auto-download so you don’t miss a thing!
Listen to the full episode of “Do My Feelings Run Me Or Does My Faith?” on The Jade Godbolt Podcast now!
“Becoming Her requires fire. Pain & Trauma will be the ashes.
And a woman capable of so much more, will be born.”
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After I shared my public denouncing of being part of Delta Sigma Theta Sorority, I had to sit back and really let it all sink in. What did God REALLY have me just do?!
In this episode I share where God led me in His word that confirmed that I was right where I was supposed to be.
I shared the stage with some phenomenal women; First Lady Shaunie Henderson, Radio Sweetheart Lady Jade, and my very own twin sister and Twinsetters Podcast co-host, Simone Kendle!
We had an incredible time and I was truly honored to be a part of this event. The Debs I got the chance to chat with were so impressive – I wish I was THAT mature in highschool! LOL they all have such bright futures and it was a privilege to pour into them and raise money for their college pursuits.
Revealing A Mommy & Me Collection You or Your Mom Would LOVE!
I had the pleasure of cohosting a beautiful mother’s day event for an intimate group of some of my favorite mama’s with my twin sister and CEO of Wove, Simone!
During the event, we:
Designed our own Mommy & Me bracelet set, launching exclusively for Mother’s Day.
Collaborated on the details and our guests left with a hand-drawn sketches of their final bracelets.
And our guests got their beautiful bracelet sets in the mail a short time after the event!
Alongside delicious bites of sushi and caviar we had yummy mocktails and cocktails! As we chatted the afternoon away, we offered complimentary jewelry cleaning, had a quick & fun lab-grown vs. natural diamond session, and had on-site designers ready to bring any other custom jewelry ideas to life.
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We had a wonderful time and I hope this vlog helps you feel like you got to attend, too!
Shop Wove’s Petals Collection launching 5/12! SHOP HERE
People always post “Uncommon Pregnancy Symptoms” and “Things I Wish I Knew Before Getting Pregnant” but I don’t see many talking about the #4thTrimester – the Postpartum season!
The Postpartum journey is so unique to every pregnancy. After having my 3rd baby within 4 years, I have my fair share of experiences to look back on!
With each 4th trimester, I got closer to #healing and it wasn’t always cute. It actually got really dark like a tunnel that it’s not until you reach the end where you start seeing the light at the end.
In this episode of The Jade Godbolt Show, I share what I really went through during each of my postpartum journeys and how they each got me closer and closer to the woman God created me to be.
Who knew that pregnancy & postpartum wasn’t just about growing a baby, but growing a mama, too!
I’m sitting here after wiping my wet eyes, thinking
“Did this really just happen?”
I was in full mommy-work mode. I had a huge deadline to fulfill. It felt like everything I needed to do was taking longer than expected. Ain’t it annoying when that happens?!?
I’d hardly interacted with Mark (my husband) but it was only because I was so focused on my deadline. I communicated that I needed to get things done so my absence wouldn’t cause concern. It didn’t cause concern, it caused conflict. And when that combative, weird energy sneaks in – it’s usually not a cute story.
Our son Micah was only 3 months old and it was a struggle to get into a new normal. I had only taken breaks (and hardly that) to nurse him and use the restroom. I barely even ate or walked around. I was out of my usual work groove, so everything was feeling foreign and “slow”.
By hour #5, I’m frustrated. Sarai is losing her mind trying to get to me, and I wince every time I hear Micah cough. He was still fighting off a cold he’d had for a week. Then, the hunger cry starts, and if my focus wasn’t thrown off yet – it was now.
I thought “when can I just focus on one thing? I wish I could feel like I DON’T have to constantly multitask.”
Oh, and then this happened…
I finally email off my deliverables and head back into the kitchen. I wanted something sweet to eat. I go towards the freezer and I notice the frozen food isn’t so frozen. It’s more like 40% frozen. Then, my heart drops.
My milk stash.
I start touching the many bags of precious liquid gold and continue to sink as more of them are less and less frozen.
My breast milk…not just some of it, but all of it.
I bust into the bathroom where Mark is currently occupying. I yell at him saying “Did you know something was up with the freezer??” He says “Yeah, I found…” and I begin to not understand him. It’s like his voice just faded into babbling. I thought “Was he saying he KNEW the freezer wasn’t working and didn’t say anything or better yet – fix it?!?”
“I found it wasn’t working after I got home earlier”
He had been home by this point for over 6 hrs. At this point, I’m feeling just about ready to turn all the way UP on this man.
He’s now piling ice on top of my milk to save it. But that’s not what this post is really about.
When My Husband And I Aren’t On The Same Page, The System Malfunctions.
Messages don’t get delivered. Previsions aren’t made. Things like, because he’s irritated with me, he doesn’t think it’s worth talking to me about the freezer – and/or- I’m too busy working to be reached.
I worked so hard to pump that breast milk. SO HARD! Yes, I can produce more but I’ll never be able to recreate THAT milk from Micah’s during his first few weeks. I pumped like CRAZY and built up a stash I knew would allow me the freedom to leave Micah for a couple days here and there, knowing he’d be well fed. That milk was the most nutritious I’ll ever make for him.
And because Mark & I weren’t on the same page, I almost lost it. All of it. The breast milk itself, the future moments of freedom, my peace, and oneness with my husband.
See, Mark has a limit. He will allow me to push it pretty far when he knows I’m really into whatever I’m doing. But then, if I’m not paying attention, he starts to feel forgotten. He feels uncared for. Neglected. Yes, I can feel all the ways to feel about that and even justify my actions. But the truth is, I should have taken time for my husband, before the freezer broke. Even on a day where a huge deadline was approaching, making sure my husband felt loved had to be a priority. That day, I missed the target.
I had to realize that discerning the spiritual and emotional state of my husband on a daily basis was a critical part of my role as a wife. Yes, work pays the bills but if I make it a habit to put him second, third, or even fourth if you count a newborn + a toddler, then our marriage will suffer greatly. I had to start doing things differently.
So yes, My husband ruined my milk stash. But it also was a wake up call. Was the breast milk the most important thing? Or was it a call to remember that before anything else, I’m a daughter of the Most High, and rib to Mark Z. Godbolt. If that order is intact – everything else, works.
